my Husband, formed me in my mother's womb.
my Husband, called me, knew me, before the world began.
my Husband, looked at me in all my sin, every thought, ever action, and stretched out His hand to receive the nail that should have pierced my hand, the death i deserved, He died
my Husband descended down to hell, where i should have gone, and did what I could not have done.
my Husband took captivity captive, my Husband redeemed me.
After what I wrote last night, I wanted to read some in the Word and pray, but my regular Bible was in my car. I looked up at the stereo and saw my compact Bible and grabbed it. It flipped open to where I had last left off reading... 3 or so years ago... in Isaiah 54.
Now, I usually write big long blogs, but this time, I can't even come close to saying what my Husband, has already said:
"Fear not; for thou shalt not be ashamed: neither be thou confounded; for thou shalt not be put to shame: for thou shalt forget the shame of thy youth, and shalt not remember the reproach of thy widowhood any more.
"For thy Maker is thine husband; the LORD of hosts is his name; and thy Redeemer the Holy One of Israel; The God of the whole earth shall he be called.
"For the LORD hath called thee as a woman forsaken and grieved in spirit, and a wife of youth, when thou wast refused, saith thy God.
"For a small moment have I forsaken thee; but with great mercies will I gather thee.
"In a little wrath I hid my face from thee for a moment; but with everlasting kindness will I have mercy on thee, saith the LORD thy Redeemer.
"For this is as the waters of Noah unto me: for as I have sworn that the waters of Noah should no more go over the earth; so have I sworn that I would not be wroth with thee, nor rebuke thee." (Is. 54:4-9 KJV)
Whenever I see a rainbow, I'll remember this promise. God spoke so clearly to me last night to look at the rainbow and when I see it remember that He has promised to not be wroth (furiously angry) with me anymore, nor will He turn me away from Himself anymore. I am so afraid that I'll wake up and be the old Mary again- so afraid i'll slip back into the bed of shame and terror... so when I read this, God pressed on my heart that He has redeemed me and is not ever going to let me go back to where I came from. And I cried like a baby.
"For the mountains shall depart, and the hills be removed; but my kindness shall not depart from thee, neither shall the covenant of my peace be removed, saith the LORD that hath mercy on thee.
"O thou afflicted, tossed with tempest, and not comforted, behold, I will lay thy stones with fair colours, and lay thy foundations with sapphires.
"And I will make thy windows of agates, and thy gates of carbuncles, and all thy borders of pleasant stones." (Is. 54:10-12)
To be called beautiful, by the God of the universe, for Him to look down on me and see how distressed I have been and to tell me He will build my foundation in beauty... it just takes my breath away.
"And all thy children shall be taught of the LORD; and great shall be the peace of thy children." (Is. 54:13)
The last few nights I'd been praying God would cover Dominic with His Spirit and bless him and always be with him. When I read this verse it was like God was literally whispering it into my ear that He is the One teaching my son, He is his Father and has given him great peace.
"In righteousness shalt thou be established: thou shalt be far from oppression; for thou shalt not fear: and from terror; for it shall not come near thee.
"Behold, they shall surely gather together, but not by me: whosoever shall gather together against thee shall fall for thy sake.
"Behold, I have created the smith that bloweth the coals in the fire, and that bringeth forth an instrument for his work; and I have created the waster to destroy.
"No weapon that is formed against thee shall prosper; and every tongue that shall rise against thee in judgment thou shalt condemn. This is the heritage of the servants of the LORD, and their righteousness is of me, saith the LORD." (Is 54:14-17)
I could not keep myself from weeping even as I wrote this out again.
It's like Jesus is saying, "Mary, I am your Husband. Look to Me. I love you. Listen to my promises, they are true! Look at the rainbow and be assured that I am not angry with you anymore. For a brief moment I hid My face from you, but I have drawn you back with EVERLASTING LOVE because you are Mine. Don't be afraid of the devil so much, because I created the "waster to destroy", he listens to Me and cannot do anything except I allow it. All those who judge you can be condemned, because your righteousness is of Me."
He isn't just my Husband though- He's your Husband too. He loves you so much... look at the rainbow, His mercies are new every morning.
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