hypocrites and liars

I have so much anger in my heart right now- so much pain buried beneath it.
It doesn't help that Dominic is screaming in the background- sigh.
Hypocrites and liars get under my skin more than anything else. It's the whole reason I stopped going to church- because I felt like a hypocrite and a liar. I'd rather be honest and live honestly than say I'm following God when I'm not.
Other people are too proud and stubborn to admit to any wrong doing.
When a man does something that any other sinful man would do and says it's nothing- it just makes me angry.
Ok, I'm just dancing around it-
Jason had been saying all this time how he could not date ANYONE... but he could have sex with me apparently.
Now, right now as I write this, he is out on a date with a girl. Lying, hypocrital, unfeeling, selfish beast that he is, cannot understand for one second why I'm angry- because he only sees his own lust. When I called him out on how he had been deceitful, how what he's doing to this new girl, is completely wrong and selfish- he called me mean. Told me he'd "never done anything mean" to me and I was angry and irrational. *exhales* He told me that "God told him" to date this new girl... God has also told him to go to Texas. God seems to tell Jason a lot of things that cator to Jason's lusts. I told him that I hate him, I hate myself, I hate God (i don't really hate God but I am angry that He allows this) and I told Jason to have a good date, hope he 'gets some' and that he's a fucking hypocrite. I didn't mention that he has no right to say he follows God when he clearly only follows his own lusts. I want to tell every person in the whole world what a misleading, lying, two-faced, double-minded man he is. He leads me to God and then leads me away to fulfill his own lusts and then blames me for it- disgard me like a piece of garbage and chases after yet another girl.
He says he's sorry for everything he's done- but his actions prove that he is going to keep doing the same thing to me and to other girls. I don't even know what to do right now- I am furious with him. Apparently he is ready to date- just not me. He does what he wants and then slaps God's name on it and calls it good. People like this DISGUST ME. I will have nothing to do with a man who walks so blasphemously. I hate him. People like him are the reason I walked away from God and the church- I have so much anger in my heart right now. I hope to move forward... I know God has forgiven me and I must forgive my brother- but there's also scripture about cutting out certain people from our lives and if I am gonna NOT walk in sin then I have to cut him out of my life. I told him the "God told me" to forget him... Pray for me, that this hatred does not consume me.