waiting

feel like every time i take steps forward i am still standing in the same place- however I have been working full time at Harmony House as a CNA since April and I must say, it is the most rewarding work of all time. I never thought I could work in a geriatric facility, but I absolutely love my residents. I'm sad that the company is no longer taking long-term residents and is switching to transitional care- I love my long-term people!

I just received a letter telling me that I have been awarded COCC's Foundation Scholarship again this year! I also find out this week whether or not I made it into COCC's nursing program- I don't even know how to feel about it- besides nervous of course. I'm almost afraid to get accepted, I'm not sure if I have what it takes. Trying to not get my hopes up, the chances of getting are very slim, 1 in 4 get accepted every year. I am glad that I have a job in the medical field and I will be so ecstatic to finally get a tax return this coming year! If I don't get accepted into the program this year I will probably just take my last two classes for my associates transfer degree and take my last prerequisite towards a BS in nursing. One class per term sounds about my speed right now honestly.

My copay for daycare is astronomical, and this month I have my car insurance renewal and eye contacts to pay for- I am really exhausted of having financial constraints and difficulties, like I said, i take a few steps forward but somehow feel like I'm standing in the exact same spot. I know that though it is frustrating that it won't be like this forever... I just have to keep hanging on.

My dad very graciously hooked up my dryer yesterday- we had to by a new pigtail and do some crazy wiring but it is up and running! unfortunately the washer hoses do not fit and when i turn the water on it goes everywhere. I don't think hoses are expensive but as crazy as it sounds, i was really looking forward to doing laundry at my own house.

I suppose having my new apartment is a step forward, even if I have yet to get the washer/dryer setup up and running, at least I have a washer and dryer and the hookups for them.

I know that everything will eventually come together and that right now I just have to keep waiting and hanging on and that I have to keep my wits about me financially, even though it's exhausting, I can't give up.

Dominic is still struggling with potty training, waiting for him to learn to poop in the toilet!! I fear that day may never come! Although I've never met a normal 10 year old who wore diapers by his own choice, let's hope Dominic is out of them before then!

Otherwise my life has been relatively calm, working and going to church again at Mission church. Life isn't too terrible I suppose. Hope you all have a lovely day, it is time for me to make lunch and zip off to work!